Hi guys!  I hope you all had the best Christmas.  I know I did.  We spent a ton of time with family, ate too much, drank too much, you get the idea.

I think I am getting depressed.  When I got laid off  two months ago, I took it like a champ.  I threw myself into getting my house organized and cleaned.  Then came all the Christmas preparations to keep me busy.  Now, the holidays are over, the tree is down, the decorations packed away for next year.  I am lost.

I just absolutely do not know what to do with myself.  I have layed around for four days.  Yesterday I decided to get up and find something to keep me busy.  I worked in the yard for a bit.  Well, long enough to get blisters from raking.  I don’t do that too much, obviously. 

I haven’t left the house since Christmas, besides running to the grocery store yesterday for half an hour.  I keep thinking about the future and there is nothing to look forward to.  I go back to school next week, thank goodness for that.  But, that is still a week away.  I am just lost.

Sorry to be so bleak, I just needed to vent.  I think about job hunting, but watching the news and reading the paper don’t help.  There are just NO jobs out there, and I can’t stay home forever.  I don’t know.  I guess I just leave it in the Lord’s hands.  When we don’t know what were are doing, he sure does.

I wish all of you a Happy New Year.  The fireman has to work, so they boys and I will probably hang out here.  I hope you have a great and safe time whatever you are doing.  May the New Year bring us all wonderful things.  There is nowhere to go but up from here, right?

J————-